Sparkly Presents from slaveboyz
It was nice catching up, finnzie
Too bad you were $300 short of impressing me. Even so, you’ve renewed your “$500 Club” membership. That should last you another couple weeks. *kiss*
My Job
It’s interesting to me, how many boys ask me if this is my “full time gig.” Being a hypnodomme, humiliatrix, and fetish queen, that is. And for some reason, I am always a bit surprised that they don’t know already. I mean, yeah, aren’t I obviously successful enough? Why would I have a different, regular job when I make more than enough creating erotic art and dominating horny boys over the phone and internet? Yes, this is my full time gig, and it will be for the foreseeable future.
Above everything else, my audio files are my lifeblood. I put my soul into each one of them, as if each one is a full music album. And regardless of whether I am taking calls or getting tributes, there is always a steady trickle of MP3 purchases that financially sustain me. Many people say I am fortunate, or “lucky,” because of my job. And in part, that might be true. I mean, I was just born with some of the qualities that make this work for me, and life experiences beyond my control contributed to my growth in the right direction.
But it has also been a lot of work; not only throughout my life, as I studied design, and language, and sexuality, but as I spent year after year at home, making erotic hypnosis files and taking calls, creating websites and establishing my name. I had a strong drive to do this, so I have no regrets. But I definitely put my social life and other interests on the back burner as I focused on making a living through erotic work online. I’ve been doing this stuff for over a decade now, and I am at the point where I don’t have to do nearly as much as I used to in order to make a living. My work is well-known and enjoyed, so there are always customers buying my downloads and ready to spend $4.99 per minute for a phone session. Even random tributes are a regular occurrence. Money for nothing and my chicks for free.
I still put my all into phone sessions. And I come out with a new audio file maybe every few months, or longer. Because I have very high standards for what I put out there anymore, and every few months is generally the amount of time it takes to get the right idea brewing and become inspired enough to create something exceptional. There is still work to do, almost a bit every day. But a lot of it is marketing and keeping my fans and customers interested. Which is as much fun as it is “work.”
I’m forever grateful to those who have seen the quality in what I do, and who keep coming back for more. I mean, I know I am special, and I know that what I create is exceptional. But what would it all mean if nobody else saw it? Not much, especially since other people are the ones who make it possible for me to pay bills, travel, and enjoy life in the way that only financial currency makes possible. Sometimes I just want to shout out a huge “thank you” to everyone who loves my work. And so here it is. Thank you for making it possible for me to create, and to express myself. The darkest, most perverted parts of myself that society generally wouldn’t except are appreciated and understood by so many. Thanks for making it so I can be my own boss, answering to nobody, always feeling in control of my own path. Taking vacations whenever I like, sleeping in til whatever hour, and never worrying about how I am going to afford something I need or desire. You have good taste in erotic entertainment, and in Goddesses. Just know I appreciate it.
Got my nose pierced!
Back from Canada Again!
Recently got back from my fourth meetup with my good friend Mz Devon (we’ve met twice in Maui, and this is the second time I’ve visited her in Canada).
Totally made bank in financial tributes, MP3 sales, and Femdom phone sessions. My highest tributer was cummie (below is just a portion of what he sent in between panty-diddling).
Another slave, zebra, spent $700 in one night on Femdom hypnosis calls at $9.99 per minute. Next up was luvlycia with around $500, and holes with around $300. Thanks sweeties, sissies, and slaves for your contributions. And way to go to the rest of you for continuously shopping my amazing erotic downloads, and for a steady trickle of random $100 tributes *kiss*
My boyfriend took off work today so that we can “catch up,” though we’ve already done plenty of that last night. All I gotta say is RAWR. Keep being good boyz and gurlz, and do tons of stuff to make me happy.
xox
Selfie Addict
My Thoughts on Polyamory
I’ve been in all types of relationships with all kinds of spoken and non-spoken rules. I think rules are important; boundaries. But I also understand that each individual is different, and what works for me might not work for the next person. Most people in our culture prefer monogamy, or at least that’s what they like to call it. They prefer pretending they don’t cheat, and pretending they never desire anyone else other than their exclusive partner. And that is not to say there aren’t couples who actually do not cheat and truly desire only each other. I just find that after years of being with one partner, crushes happen. No matter how much I adore and am turned on by my partner, both he and I will also come across other individuals who we find mentally and physically attractive, who reciprocate those feelings. But the rule of monogamy states that we can’t do anything about it.
I understand jealousy, I am not immune to it. I understand wanting to possess someone I love, and I even understand wanting to be possessed. But look at life; it’s long. Most traditional, monogamous couples I’ve known stop having sex after a decade or so. So then that’s it? No sex ever again? Honey I am going to be doing it when I’m 80, assuming I live that long. Sex and physical intimacy are beautiful things, and I can’t imagine ever being deprived of giving and receiving both on a consistent basis.
The thing about polyamory is that everyone makes their own rules. Some people have a primary partner, and then other relationships on the side. Other poly people do not like to categorize their relationships, or put one of their lovers above the other, because they are all equally important. There are poly triads, poly households, mono-poly relationships… there is basically a limitless variety of ways for multiple interpersonal relationships to form. And I have learned that communication, negotiation, compromise, and trust are some of the most important factors in any relationship. Not communicating leads to resentment, and as the saying goes, holding on to resentment is like “drinking poison and waiting for the other person to die.”
How could I deprive my lovers or myself of the beautiful things we could experience through being intimate with others? There are things he can learn from her that he couldn’t from me. There are experiences I could have with her that I couldn’t have with him. We could be missing out on so much growth by limiting ourselves to intimacy with only one person for the entire rest of our lives. Just because of jealousy and fear, would I say “no” to my partner’s growth and enjoyment? With enough reassurance, jealousy and fear are pretty easily trumped by the sense of compersion I get through knowing my loved one is happy, even if it is in part because of another woman’s affection.
What I want at this point in my life is an open relationship. I do want a primary partner, because I like the stability of having a person I know I can always go to first, who can always come to me, first. I like knowing who I am going to spend the holidays with. I don’t like things to be overly chaotic. But I also do not want to deprive myself or my partner(s) of experience, learning, and enjoyment. And that’s what other people give.
Goddess Worship
I tweeted today the following:
I expect to be placed on a pedestal, to be treated as a Goddess, by any and all men who are to be a significant part of my life. In case there was ever a question. It’s just how I am. And I know there are more than enough men who want to treat me as such.
Of course, we all know I am on online Domme, and that I create erotic material for submissive males, suggesting they submit to me, adore me, serve me, and even worship me. I do phone sessions on the same topics. Some of you may know that I also have been involved in my local kink scenes ever since I was of age. I’ve had submissives serve me in person, and have had one long-term relationship with a real time collared slave.
Over the years, I’ve swayed back and forth when it comes to how I’ve labeled myself, and how I’ve identified my sexuality. My likes and dislikes are generally in flux; after all, we are always changing. But I have come to realize that whether I am into men, women, or both, whether I am monogamous or polyamorous, and whether I am topping or bottoming in a kink scene, I am a Femdom Goddess, and demand to be treated as such.
This doesn’t mean I hate men, or see all men as inferior, or that I expect one-sided service and devotion in my relations with all men. I am just as capable of putting a loved one on a pedestal as I am of being placed on one. I can be very giving, most especially with my passion, affection, sexuality, and friendship. But above all, I will NOT allow myself to become intimate with a man who does not constantly treat me like I am one of the most beautiful, amazing people who has ever entered his life, and that he has such immense gratitude for my presence in his life that he never ceases to find new ways to please and honor me.
That is the only type of man I care to hold on to. The rest can find women who are content with being treated as if they are anything less than pure, unexplainable magick.
I am the one who leads the relationship. I make the rules. Yes, your opinion matters, and is taken into consideration, but my word is final. And if you want me close to you, because what I offer is so beautiful you know how badly it would suck to be without me, then you will do what’s best for us all: follow my lead, keep me on my pedestal, and treat me as a Goddess. Want me with the burning desire of a thousand men, because there are at least that many who would jump at the chance to touch me.
Point Like an Arrow in My Direction
and sniff
Goddess Worship
Lick them~